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[TOM.123]

my name is Thomas.....am a vegetarian.........because of food poisoning i had an elevated serum bilirubin which was mis diagnosed as hepatitis.........i took treatment for a month ........and returned to college with a billirubin of 3.4........fear of death i controlled my food to just a very small amount ....and had spent many days with just glucose.........then i developed strong pain at the lower abdomen near liver.........later after 3 months on diagnosis was found to be gastroenteritis ...it was vacation time.........doctor gave a heavy dose antibiotics for 10 days..and made me fast for 2 days to confirm the disease..................and thereby concluded i never had jaundice........After the ten day medicine i was given PANTOPRAZOLE tablets(for acid inhibition).....for 5 months............THEN DURING THE 10 DAY COURSE I BECAME SHOWING SYMPTOMS OF HIGH ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION............WORRYING SICK OF SIMPLE THINGS LIKE BREATHING..PAIN IN CHEST....AND SOON ENOUGH I LOST MY ABILITY TO SLEEP......IE I BEGAN WORRYING ABOUT HOW TO SLEEP...........LIKE A PHYS KICK THOUGHTS LIKE MEANING OF LIFE and rubbish like that.............THIS CARRIED ON TILL END OF 2 months...............later on i went back to college...THEN I FOUND THAT I AM LOSING MY MEMORY.........ON REQUEST BY MY FAMILY DOCTOR I STOPPED THE MEDICINE..........SOON MY SYMPTOMS DECREASED ............BUT STILL MY MEMORY BECAME WORSE AND I AGAIN BECOME DEPRESSED AND ANXIOUS .......THIS OCCURRED IN A CYCLE ONE DAY MY MEMORY FAILS...NEXT DAY MEMORY GAINS DEPRESSION AND FOLLOWED BY ANXIETY...THE ANXIETY IS ABOUT WHETHER I BECOME A PSYCHO AND DEPRESSION OF MEMORY IMPAIRMENT... 2 MONTHS LATER I VISITED A NEUROLOGIST.............HE SAID I WAS HAVING B12 DEFICIENCY.........HE GAVE ME INJECTIONS AND ORAL TABLETS......IT WORKED WELL FOR SOME DAY LATER IT CAME BACK LIKE ANYTHING................I REFERRED TO NET AND FOUND THE SYMPTOMS TO BE SAME AS THAT I WAS THROUGH........SO I WAS CONVINCED MY SELF...BUT NOW ITS BEEN 2 MONTHS I TOOK MEDICINE...i seem to improve a lot some day just after injection.........but isnt cured completely...........WHAT SHOULD I DO....I CANT GO THROUGH THIS..I FEEL SCARED AND ANXIOUS...........AM TOO YOUNG TO SUFFER THIS........AM JUST 20 .....WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.........................PLEASE HELP