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About (a month?) ago, I started to notice muscle twitching in my right bicep. I thought it was "cool" and didn't think anything of it. Well, I started to notice that my right eyelid was (getting stuck? twitching?). I did the unthinkable! I started to do research on the internet. I am used to looking up different medical problems because as I said two years ago, my mother was diagnosed with adenocarcinoma of the right upper lobe of her lung (Lung cancer). She had a lobectemy and she has been in remission ever since. My dad died in Dec 07', I found him in his room a victim of a massive heart attack. Then my mother's shaking started. I don't want to bore you with paragraphs of my differential diagnoses (hahah I am a police officer and not a doctore, i swear!) She was finally diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease along with PolyMyagia Rhumatica. (PMR?) (taking a breath) (ok...) She is doing better. My x-wife and I decided back in June of 08' that were were going to try and get back together and it has been a tumultriuos ride. My point is that I have been under an EXTREME amount of stress. As a cop, I see live, eat and breath stress for lunch.
But, over the last two years I have been on overload. Anyway, I looked on the internet for the cause of twitching and found A....L....(you know). I know I am trying to be humorous, but I am scared out of my freakin mind. Aisde from the stress, the only thing that I can think of that would cause anoything like this was the fact that I aggravated my mid to low back again by over exerting and picking up a very heavy bag a month ago that I had no business picking up (back injury? Cause?)....As of today, fasculations are mostly in my right calf, and thigh, sometimes left, right arm, abdomen, right shoulder and right eyelid and ONCE between my left thumb and index finger(that freaked me out!
). My recent nightly ritual of a glass (or two 
) of wine and my 5mg of diazepam seem to slow them down, but they seem to be getting worse and so does my anxiety. I don't have any weakness that I know of or any other signs but am deathly afraid that I am not going to see my kids grow up. My fasculations happen many times a day for about 5 to 15 seconds at a time.I went to the doctor this Monday and he told me that most people with "Adam Lincoln Samuel" (cop lingo, guys) come in looking like a "ragdoll" and eyelid twitches made him believe that I am not managing my anxiety. (right?
) He told me to schedule an appointment with him in 8 yes... E I G H T weeks and we would evaulate from there. I went home twitched a bit and called him back to have him give me a referral to a neuro appt for this Friday. I am going to try so hard to talk him into an EMG!!! I need this to be over!I have never been more nervous in my life!!!! I have always been OCD and a hypochondriac, but the twitching is no omnious! I am doing pushups, running, opening peanut butter jars after tightining as hard as I can, trying to caryy extra loads of plastic grocery bags with one hand, just to keep proving to my self that I am not losing muscle strength.
I don't know why I am rambling, I guess I am just hoping that someone that reads this post will help reassure me this sounds like BFS. I have never been the type of guy to really take day by day and enjoy it. I tell ya! The last two years changed me and this experience, if I live through it has really metamophisied me.The one thing that I noticed on these forums are the lack of successes after these, "Oh my god, I'm dying" posts. I promise that if on 5/20/10 I am healthy, I will repost here (I already set my BlackBerry
) If there is one thing I need righht now is LOGICAL hope. Joking aside, these widespread fasculations are ruining my life. Help.
God Bless.
Anthony
He diagnosed me with BFS and told me to get my anxiety under control.
